My children - surprisingly - were not the problem. It was a worker at this office. I left having not obtained this documentation and instead, left shaking internally from rage I was struggling to contain in my body.
After loading the children I attempted to call my husband to vent. Not being able to reach him, I went through the phone book in my head of who I would be safe in calling. I called a girlfriend. She was also stunned by what occurred and gave me the validation I thought I needed. But only a few minutes into the phone call and I realized the bigger picture of what had happened.
I had missed a perfect opportunity to practice all I am learning while studying "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle. I had the chance to keep my ego in check and honor the moment for what it was. Instead, my ego almost instantly reared it's head screaming, "Who does she think she is talking to you like that!"
My ego took everything personally and sought only to defend itself and prove itself right in the entire situation. Hence, me telling many friends about what had happened asking, "Can you believe this happened to me? Can you believe I was treated like that?"
The bigger lesson here though is that it only took me a couple of minutes to realize what had happened and where *I* went wrong - not the woman behind the counter whose ego is obviously a lot louder than mine. So I choose to be aware for the next opportunity and cut that time by half. With enough practice, there will be little to no time between the trigger and my realizing the opportunity standing before me. And I will be able to respond to the situation in kindness and without the ego, always remaining in the present moment.
"Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness."
~ Eckhart Tolle
~ Eckhart Tolle
Today I Vow to be aware of the opportunities to practice Presence and Kindness. I make note of the time it takes from trigger to understanding and vow to cut that time by half at every chance.
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